Peace Of Ren

Embodiment rooted in truth.

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  • Lovestruck

    Afraid to pick the pen up because all I want to write about is you.. Struggling and resisting my internal truth. 

    Truth number one: I can’t get you off my mind. Constantly seeing thoughts of you, but I act like I’m blind. These feelings never subside. 

    Truth number two: I have no idea what this means. It’s driving me crazy and I’m coming apart at the seams. This love is NOT as simple as it seems. You’ve completely rearranged my perspective and perception on life and love and what it all means. See what I mean? All roads lead back to love with you. I see multiple paths ahead of me and each one I still see me loving you. 

    Which leads me to truth number three: I’ve never felt anything like this before. I’m completely terrified of this connection, and yet.. I want more. I want to run away, but something in me calls me to explore.. what this could mean.. what does this mean? Am I crazy? Am I the one complicating things? 

    How do I tell you I’m in love with you, but it’s deeper than love? Or maybe this is love for what it was always meant to be. Or maybe this is love for what it’s always meant to me. I just was blinded by illusion, but now I can see.. It’s like you came into my world and set my heart free. 

    And this is why I’m scared to pick up the pen.. because every time I do, I go writing about you again.. love note after love note.. confession after confession.. I fight to resist these feelings and then wonder why I’m obsessing.. obviously there’s a message.. Im certain there’s a lesson..

    I’m just so determined to know the reason or know the meaning of what I feel.. when maybe the only purpose is to show me that it’s real.. instead of chasing or seeking a conclusion, allow time to reveal.. maybe I’m supposed to surrender my need for control and let go of the wheel.. 

    Maybe that’s the part of me it heals.. 

  • Love in a Thousand Ways

    I could write a thousand love letters and it still wouldn’t be enough to explain all the ways in which you’ve changed and validated my perception of love. Consistently affirming my existence and craving for depth and intimacy. You always meet me here. You never complain. You never invalidate. You never run. You stay. You anchor down when I get carried away. Never fearing my waves. Constantly teaching me about love and myself and how to do things the right way. You’re my favorite soulmate. You mirror me like twin flames. You never play no games. You keep me sane. My ascension partner, truly. You bring me peace when the chaos gets unruly. You mean the world to me. 

    I could tell you a thousand times and you still would never know just how much. But I’ll spend a lifetime trying to make you feel and understand all this love. Because you deserve to know the feelings you bring to others. I love the way we love and care for one another. Feels like protection from the father, and nurturing from the mother. You make the most divine lover. 

    I could say it a thousand different ways, in a thousand different fonts. But you still would never know the gift that you’ve been.. or the ways you’ve restored my heart. 

  • I Won’t Water Down My Love

    I do not want to water down my love. 

    I do not want to water down my love. 

    I do not want to water down my love. 

    I feel things so deeply. With so much intensity.. it’s not easy. I wish people knew it wasn’t easy to be me. I wish people knew how hard it is for me to show up everyday. I wish people knew that I’m not always okay. I wish people cared. I wish they showed me compassion and empathy. I wish they could see. I wish people knew things have not always been easy for me. 

    I’m a lover, not a fighter. But I fight for what I love. I wish people knew how badly I’ve been hurting.. how many scars lie buried beneath the surface. I wish people could see me deeper than the surface. I wish people could love me deeper. I wish people knew I’m really a keeper. I’m really a feeler.. And sometimes an over thinker.. I wish people knew I had feelings too. 

    I wish people knew that I’m scared too. I have experiences that would rattle the average person. I have pain that still aches after years of hurting.. I’m human. And yeah, maybe sometimes I’m superwoman. But I’m not a mutant.. I’m not immune. I feel things like each and every one of you. I just don’t look like what I’ve been through.. I’ve learned to alchemize the pain and transmute.. but it doesn’t mean my heart doesn’t break into pieces from time to time.. this heart has been cracked open a thousand times. Sometimes it’s a wonder how I’m still alive.. how have I survived? 

    Through all the trauma and all the tears, I still carry with me all these fears.. but I push through. Because even with all this pain I’ve experienced, I still hold tight to my faith and my truth.. God gave me this heart for a reason. So, I’ll continue to love harder even when I’m bleeding.. or even when they change on me like seasons.. or even when I’m needing someone to love me back.. because that’s just who I am. Love has always ended badly for me.. but in the moments, what I felt on my end was real.. so it was never any love lost.. I always trust what I feel.. I know my love heals.. so..

    I won’t water down my love. 

    I won’t water down my love. 

    I won’t water down my love. 

  • Softness Is My Home

    If it causes me to harden or act out of character, it’s not for me.

    If I can’t be soft and feminine, it’s not for me.

    If I have to resort to chaos to beg for my peace, it’s not for me.

    If it isn’t gentle, and it doesn’t bring me ease, it’s not for me.

    I am more than capable of using my flame to protect myself..

    But I much rather stay in the waters that birthed me.

    Love hits different when the safety you search for in others, you start seeking within yourself. And then suddenly, love that is aligned with you meets you where you are.

  • When I’m Free

    I’m so tired of “rebranding” and starting over. Don’t get me wrong, there’s beauty in the process. But if I can be transparent, I’ve only had to start over so many times because I wasn’t being honest with myself. I allowed the projections and fears to lead me, instead of allowing my faith to guide me. I was afraid of being selfish. See, I don’t know what it’s like to not live for others. Somewhere along the way, I forgot how to live for me. I forgot that I matter. I forgot that I have hopes, dreams, and aspirations too. And I can’t bring any of that into fruition if I’m busy pouring into and nurturing everything but myself. And I’m tired. I’ve said I’m tired multiple times, but I’ve hit a breaking point now. My inner child and inner teenager want out, and I can no longer suppress or ignore the beating of my heart. I’m no longer living my life broken apart. As I reclaim all the parts of me, I’m allowing myself to see who I was always meant to be. I thought I loved myself for being chained to the concept of having to heal others, turns out I love me better when I’m free. 

  • Journal Archives Journey: Entry 02 & 03 – December 28 & 29, 2022 

    A moment of gratitude. A reflection of what 2022 taught me about life and love.. about myself. In 2022, I realized life had broken me into pieces. But that was the year I had found beauty in the brokenness. 

    Each piece still a reflection of me, and together, the pieces made me whole. That was the year I realized I am a beautiful mosaic made up of stained glass.. fragile and colorful.. transparent.. Like the way I wear my heart on my sleeve. Funny enough, today, that’s still me. And just as I had once thanked my past self for hanging on until I could come back and save her, I thank her again today. See, I told you everything would be okay. 

  • Journal Archives Journey: Entry 01 – December 27, 2022

    A letter I wrote to God and my Spirit Team. This is the moment everything shifted for me. At that time, I had no idea what or who I was becoming. Since then, I have indeed deepened my connection with self, The Most High, and my Spirit Court. 

    The message and gratitude still stands. The mission remains the same: to bridge the gap and awaken others. 

    This is such a full circle moment for me. My heart is full. 

  • It Hasn’t Been Done

    If it were out there, you would have found it by now.

    Stop second guessing your capacity and ability to make things happen for you.

    When you really want something, the whole Universe conspires to give it to you. You just have to believe.

    That dream you have? Yeah, you are the first. You can’t find it in the world, because the world has been waiting for you to create it.

    I heard, “Use it or lose it.” “Loose it or mute it.”

  • About Peace Of Ren

    Since, I’ve changed and grown a lot over the years, I just want to do a quick introduction of who I am and what Peace Of Ren means for me.

    PeaceOfRen started as just my Twitter handle. Now, it has become sort of like a brand thing for me. My name is Serenity, but most people call me Ren. Right there is already a tiny piece.

    So, I thought PeaceOfRen was cool because through my work I am sharing pieces of myself. These pieces that I am sharing also happen to be some of the things that bring me peace or have helped me find peace. So, you are also learning about the peace of Ren.

    If you say it too fast, it also almost sounds like peace offering. Which, I am offering others peace through my words. I am offering peace to the world.

    So, the play on words was just way too perfect. It was almost like it was saved just for me. Just for this moment in my life. So, I hope you’ve all enjoyed PeaceOfRen.

    I also just wanted to let you guys know I do have a YouTube where I share my experiences or messages from the universe to help others along their journey. Feel free to check it out if you feel called to do so @ PeaceOfRen. I would be honored and more than excited to talk to and get to know some of my soul tribe out there!!

    With love and light,

    Serenity

  • Today, I am Reborn

    You tossed me aside & left me in the cold. You thought I would freeze. You thought I had froze. You never could have predicted that I’d ignite the fire within & survive. You never thought I would thrive. But look at me. I am alive. Like the phoenix, I rise.

    Today, I reinvented myself.

    Today, I am a new person.

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