Hopeless Romantic Queen

I pray to God about you!
I pray that you will be well at all times
I pray that whatever overwhelms you diminishes and peace will cover your heart
I pray that you’re becoming the best version of yourself preparing for our partnership of a lifetime
I know and believe that God put us in this position to one day realized why it never worked out with anybody else…

I pray for your achievements
I pray for your breakthrough
I pray for your successes

I pray for calmness in your heart in the midst of chaos
I pray for strength in the midst of difficulties
I pray for wisdom in the midst of it all

Don’t worry my love I will always be by your side
Through your sickness
Through your health
Through your confusions and loss roads
Through your anxieties
Through your weakness

I will walk for you in times you can’t stand anymore
I will carry you through
I will never give up
I will be there

In God’s perfect timing you’ll be here
You’ll be holding my hands
Kissing my forehead
Showering me with love
Spending our lifetime growing together
Pushing each other to our purpose
While loving each other unconditionally

By: S. Pab

Written: 02.11.20

One day you’ll be next to me
Everything will fall into the right places
It will all make sense
Why things never worked out before
Cause now, you are here
The unconditional love I wished for…
You’re definitely my heaven sent
I’m so glad I waited for you
And I didn’t settle for mediocracy
You’re the reason for my existence
You’re the reason for everything I’ve gone through
God was preparing me for this moment
To finally walk life with you
You’re so perfect in my eyes
It’s beyond I can ever imagine
Thank you for coming into my life
I cannot wait to spend the rest of my life with you!

By: S.Pab

Written: 07.07.19

Hey QUEEN,

YOU are amazing beyond imaginable,
You wear your HEART on your sleeves.
You’re a RARITY
Always remember you’re not missing out on anyone but they’re missing out on you…
Perfect combination of old soul
with a modern mindset,
You deserve the WORLD,
so never take off gems from your crown because they cannot live to your standards…
You’re EXCEPTIONAL and only a KING can recognized that.
So don’t you dare rush into things,
don’t you dare settle for less,
because even when the
society says you’re
looking for something impossible,
you know in your heart
when it’s GOD’S WILL
EVERYTHING is possible!!!
So hang in there
and continue building
the kingdom you already started!👸🏻

Published by:
Sheryl Pab
04.18.19

For years we talked and that’s all we did…
“hi! hello! How have you been?”
Is it weird to fall inlove with someone
You rarely see.
Cause here I am hurt by the fact I left.

For years, that’s all we did.
Catching up on things and that’s it
You’re all the way on the other coast
But here I am enjoying our conversations the most

We joke around a lot.
Most of the time we just laugh
There were days we talked about life
And from then on I know you were more than just a knight

You’re a jerk most of the time
That was your front and I guess that’s fine…
I know deep down inside
Hides a gentleman with a big heart
Acting like an abstract art;
Complicated and confusing,
To get to his deeper being…

I held on to you for so long
I saw potential I’ve never seen before
Such a jerk on the outside but a heart so pure
How can someone be so mean yet so kind?

Potential… ha! that’s where I got lost.
Seeing the good in everything you do.
Admiring every facets of your being.
From your mean demeanor to your kind heart.
How can I fall inlove with an illusion?

The day has come that hurts the most.
Letting go the years I treasured most.
But it’s just an illusion I know will not come true.
So many chances I’ve given and my heart just can’t do it anymore.

I have to set boundaries
Cause here I am cutting my own heart into pieces.
Wishing for something that’s impossible
Inlove with someone who’s plausible

I’m removing my self from an equation that was never even there.
I’m finally putting an end to this illusion.
I need to face reality and start anew
It’s hard to let go but it’s necessary
For God has a plan that so unknown,
I have to trust and continue to be patient,
Cause I believe someday, somehow I will know the reason why I had to let you go.

Written and published by:
S.Pab
04.09.19-JP

She’s built with strength and a whole lot of faith.
She’s not easy cause if she is then everybody will have her.
She’s patient because she knows great things takes time.
She knows sexual encounter is good but also temporary.
Spiritual and mental connection that’s a different story.
She wears her heart in her sleeves which mistaken by her weakness.
Little do they know, her heart is her strongest weapon to fight through it all.
She’s unstoppable beyond imaginable.
Because no matter how many times life knocked her down, she kept rising up, never giving up.
She’s tough but there’s a reason to that.
She won’t settle for less than she deserves, not anymore, not this time.
She knows what she can offer and if it’s not reciprocated, she rather be alone than in the hands of the wrong person.
She’s worthy of it all, the highs, the lows, the chaos, the in-between, she’ll be a perfect partner in this thing called life.
So trust me when I say, be patient with her, she’s worth it. It just takes time to be welcome in her heart. It takes time but truly worthwhile!

Copyrighted: S. Pab 12.08.18

Will you travel with me to infinity?
Watch every sunrise in every corner of this world?
Will you run the beach with me with your bare feet?
While every waves touches our toes.
Will you get lost with me in the woods,
finding our way together in the middle of the loop?
Will you camp out with me while waiting for the shooting stars to fall,
spending night that turns to day,
venturing the unknown.
Do you prefer seeing the northern lights or dancing with happy feet?
Driving by the cliffs with the best mountain view there is?
Will you hold my hands through it all?!?!
Whether we’re in Paris or New York?
Or it can possibly through our lowest low?
Will you still be here through it all?
Here’s a promise I will keep,
once God is ready for us to meet!
I promise to love you unconditionally,
whether we’re traveling or struggling,
I will hold on endlessly,
through highs, through lows and every chaos we may encounter,
I promise to be there through it all,
traveling to infinity here we go!!!

Copyrighted by: Sheryl Pab
11.15.18

Stranger danger they said…
But there we were sleeping on the same bed.
No intimate interactions.
No chemistry.
No sort of connections.

I never been treated like this before.
At one point I felt unwanted.
I guess I was hoping I’ll get taken advantage,
because that’s what most men will do.
Somehow you didn’t.
Somehow my presence was more important
than anything else that weekend.

Thank you for treating me like a princess.
Thank you for respecting me in all sort of way.
Thank you for making me realized what
I deserve all these years.
Thank you for making me feel comfortable
expecting nothing but my company.

I wish we tried to opened up our walls.
But it seemed like we’re both in the same boat.
Afraid to let anyone in.
Afraid to open up.
Afraid to be vulnerable.
Afraid to get hurt again.

Revisiting places that you been before just for
the sake of making new memories…
It’s funny how we had the same life intentions,
Re-living the past to reconstruct the future.

I wish you well.
You deserve it.
I see through your soul, how you crave
to be love infinitely.
I see a heart so big that might have been
taken advantaged and abused before.
I see a potential life partner, for someone who
will appreciate your whole being including
your flaws, loving you unconditionally.

It’s too bad, we didn’t really try.
You’re not ready and so am I.
But why is destiny plays serendipity.
You and I had the same philosophy.
We head back to the place that was once
great memories.
We return to create new once, while glancing
to the past that was once a great blast!

Written and Copyrighted by: Sheryl Pab
DATED: 10.15.18 (M)

Dear Heart,
I’m so proud of you! For staying strong and courageous through all these… It wasn’t easy, there were times I thought you weren’t beating anymore. You beat once in your lifetime, to the one person you thought will spend the rest of your life with. Unfortunately, you were crushed into million pieces, scarred to almost death but then here you are, still beating stronger than ever before… I’m proud of you!

I think it’s time… it’s time to open up again. It’s time to let people in. Remember, not everyone is there to hurt you. I believe someday, someone will actually make your scars look beautiful than how it is now.

Someday, someone will appreciate every flaws and imperfections. Trust me, God has much better, bigger, grandest plan you could ever imagine…

So please, LOVE AGAIN, HEART, that’s your job! Beat again! Be excited again! Bring back the butterflies that lives inside you! You can’t be numb forever… Time heals, YES, memories never changes but the present do and so does the future… that’s the beauty of it! Everything that happened were learned lessons, stepping stone to better, brighter tomorrow. It’s time for a new season! C’mon heart let it go and LOVE AGAIN!

Love,
Your Broken Heart

Copyrighted by: Sheryl Pab
10.07.18

“Do I still love you?” That’s a question somebody asked me today.
It made me think deeper within my soul.
Is this Love I still feel or just an illusion created in the deepest part of my being.

I LOVED you with all my heart and soul, I’ve given you the BEST of me,
I poured out this heart so pure and opened a new horizon for you yet here I am, guarding what’s left of my heart,
although I’m still willing to gamble it all even after the fact that I nearly died 4 years ago but hey, that’s LIFE, you’re supposed to take a risk despite any pain or any confusions.

I guess I MISS being with someone.
Someone I can truly give my heart and soul to.
Someone I can trust my well being.
Someone who’s there to protect me, not hurt me.

Someone who will love me when I’m least lovable.
Someone who stick by my side in the moments I don’t even want to stick up for my self.
Someone who will never leave me on my lowest low yet love me more so on those times.

Someone who will know all my defaults and yet still love me unconditionally.
Someone who understand this heart so pure, it gives more than it suppose to, even sometimes it get stepped all over the place.

Someone I can LAUGH with and enjoy life with.
Someone I can explore the world with, traveling each corner of this earth.
Someone I can go on a road trip with and drive along with even its to the point of nowhere.

Someone who loves God as much as I love God. Worshiping our creator, making him the center of it all.
I guess I miss someone, someone I can do life with.
Someone I can build a great foundation of partnership that we will protect for the rest of our lives…

Copyrighted by: Sheryl Pab