the truth is,

it is just the beginning of everything but it seems to be mixed up inside her head. comparing herself with other people, doubting her ability with her fears, which probably beat her own core. she doesnt even believe herself if she can, if she’s able to. trying to balance everything with one brain.

the eisenhower principle, learned that, done that. um not an -ed, im learning it again. i always have problems regarding my own priority and importance. i sometimes dont know how to list it all up so that i could think one by one, it seems my mind wanted it to be in one click and delete it easily when it’s done. i know that’s not how things work, it is in the middle where you could decide which one first and last.

it seems easy to motivate, say to people. not saying that i am an indecisive, or probably i am still learning so that im not becoming an indecisive person, but it is just not easy to take care all of it.

i could say the social made it worse because you see people who “seems” to grow in it. they probably only post the things that are beyond the aesthetic and not the worse case they experience, which i basically do it too. i know it is a toxic world out there but at the same time there are some things that make me happy to post, edit something, be creative, all behind that, i am enjoying it. but i know how bad it is too for my mind because there are always triggers (sadly).

how is she going to overcome it? she asked in 13.03.24.

she hates it when she feels lonely around a lot of people. life isnt created only for one, two or even groups. she hates being alone, but she hates being in groups too (sometimes) because she knows, she would never fit in. i dont know what she lacks of.

confidence? social energy? fun? or prolly all the things she searches for but never even find it on herself. she loves and hates being so sentimental, but thats the way she is. i dont even know how to break it down. let it all feel like the water in the waterfall fall down.

oh well, does she even deserve it?

✨SKINCARE ALERRRTT✨

Hey beautiees! Im back with a review. Nah kali ini, aku mau review produk dari Raiku yang variant Brightening Series. For those of you who dont know, Raiku ini brand skincare lokal Indonesia yang baru. And before i started, wanna say thanks to Raiku & Beauty Ranger ID for this project.

Raiku ini punya 2 variant skincare diantaranya Brightening Series sama Anti Aging Series. Kebetulan, aku dikirimin yang Brightening Series. Daripada lama-lama, lets move on to the review!

PACKAGING

Start from the colour, first impression aku langsung bilang “lucu!”. Kalian bisa liat lah ya itu warnanya gemes banget pastel pink tosca, itu mostly girls’ favorite color. Terus mulai dari Tonernya, botolnya kecil dan handy kalo mau dibawa kemana-mana. Same like the Serum, biasanya kan serum tuh botolnya agak berisi gitu, nah Raiku ini botol serumnya kurus. Jadi udah pasti travel-friendly juga! Next, move on to Cleansing Cream, Cleansing Foam, Morning Cream sama Night Creamnya. Packagingnya mirip-mirip semua sih kalo ini, cuma beda warna sama keterangan tulisannya aja. Oiya! terus yang paling aku suka sih, produk Raiku ini dalemnya ada segel plastik gitu, jadi lebih hygiene terus keliatan rapi.

CLEANSING SERIES

Yuk sekarang aku mau mulai reviewnya mulai dari Cleansing Seriesnya. Raiku Cleansing Series terdiri dari Cleansing Cream & Cleansing Foam. Buat kalian yang belum tau, Cleansing Cream disini sifatnya mirip sama milk or oil cleanser untuk menghapus makeup. Fyi, tekstur Cleansing Cream ini mirip sama sabun muka “cetaphil”. Awalnya aku agak pesimis sama Cleansing Creamnya, eh ternyata.. Sebagus itu! Ngangkat makeupnya oke dan gak greasy sama sekali pas diaplikasikan. Cara pakainya gimana sih? Mirip dengan milk or oil cleanser, tinggal di oleskan ke seluruh wajah terus di wipe off sama kapas.

Lanjuuut masih di Cleansing Series, setelah wajah bersih pakai Cleansing Cream, langsung cuci muka pakai Cleansing Foamnya. Personally, aku jarang ganti-ganti sabun muka dan aku awalnya takut gitu gak cocok sama sabun mukanya. But turns out aku cocok dan aku suka dengan hasilnya. Walaupun namanya “Cleansing Foam” tapi sabunnya gak berbusa kok. Sabunnya juga gentle dan bikin wajah halus.

Penjelasan Lebih Detail tentang Cleansing Series

Rangkaian pembersih wajah dengan kandungan bahan aktif yang bisa digunakan setiap hari. Cleansing Cream dan Cleansing Foamnya efektif mengangkat sel kulit mati tanpa membuat wajah menjadi kering ataupun iritasi. Kulit menjadi segar, kenyal dan tampak lebih cerah.

Active Ingredients

1. Ekstrak Bunga Chamomile

Kandungan aktifnya dapat membantu mencerahkan warna kulit dan mengencangkan pori-pori.

2. Vitamin E

Berperan sebagai pelembab kulit dan membantu menyamarkan bintik hitam di wajah.

3. Ekstrak Beras

Mengandung antioksidan alami, ekstrak beras meminimalisir kerusakan karena radikal bebas dari lingkungan atau sengatan matahari. Kandungan ini juga membantu membuat kulit tampak cerah dan lebih lembab.

BRIGHTENING SERIES

Nah ini nih rangkaian skincare sebenarnya! Yang pertama ada Brightening Toner yang tadi packagingnya udah dibahas diatas, Toner ini bener-bener rasanya kaya air aja cuma didalemnya banyak kandungannya. Cara pakainya juga sama seperti toner biasanya. Oiya, Toner ini rutin aku pakai pagi dan malam setelah cuci muka pake Raiku Cleansing Foam. Terus yang aku suka dari Toner ini, walaupun cair tapi cepat diserap sama kulit. Aku udah pakai sekitar 2 minggu dan jujur sedih Tonernya udah mau habis, padahal aku pakainya gak boros. Definitely bakal beli kalo udah habis.

Setelah Toner, lanjut ke Serumnya. Buat Teksturnya memang agak thick dan aku ngerasa harusnya Serum ini tuh ditempatin di pump bukan di pipet. Cuma its okay sih kan yang penting bisa dipake hehe. Serum ini aku pake rutin setiap pagi dan malam, cara pakainya juga sama seperti Serum biasanya. Tinggal dipipet aja terus olesin deh ke seluruh wajah.

Neext, Move to the creams! Kalo pagi, aku abis pake Serumnya, aku pake Brightening Morning Cream. Jujur, aku suka banget sama Morning Creamnya karena bikin wajah halus. Selain tu juga ada SPF 15nya jadi aku biasanya gak  pakai sunscreen lagi hehe. Terus kalau sebelum tidur, setelah Serum juga aku pakai Brightening Night Cream. Tekstur Morning Cream sama Night Creamnya menurut aku memang sedikit berbeda, tapi dua-duanya gentle dan bikin muka smooth (apalagi kalo pakainya rutin!)

Penjelasan Lebih Detail tentang Brightening Series

Dapatkan kulit lembab dan cerah merata dengan RAIKU BRIGHTENING SERIES. Terdiri dari Brightening Toner, Brightening Serum, Brightening Morning Cream SPF15 dan Brightening Night Cream yang diformulasikan khusus untuk semua jenis kulit, efektif meratakan warna dan membuat kulit terlihat lebih bersih, cerah dan bersinar.

Active Ingredients:

1. Niacinamide

Jenis Vitamin B yang dapat membantu melembabkan wajah sehingga dapat menyamarkan noda dan keriput. Zat ini juga membantu mencerahkan dan meratakan warna kulit.

2. Ekstrak Beras

Mengandung antioksidan alami, ekstrak beras meminimalisir kerusakan karena radikal bebas dari lingkungan atau sengatan matahari. Kandungan ini juga membantu membuat kulit tampak cerah dan lebih lembab.

3. Safflower

Minyak Safflower mengandung asam linoleat yang membantu mengunci kelembaban wajah serta membuat wajah terlihat lebih bercahaya.

4. AHA

Senyawa asam yang berperan sebagai eksfoliator yang baik untuk membuat wajah menjadi lebih cerah serta mengatasi masalah pigmentasi.

Intinya, overall aku suka banget sama Produk Raiku ini terutama Cleansing Foam sama Morning Creamnya. I promise, kalo udah habis, gonna purchase by myself dan Raiku ini bakal masuk jadi My Skincare Routine😍

Lastlyy, gonna say thanks again to Raiku Beauty and Beauty Ranger ID for this project.  N.B : Skincare itu cocok-cocokan, yang cocok di aku belum tentu cocok di kalian. Dan purging juga bisa aja terjadi, kan kulit orang beda-beda. But trust me, i really recommend this product and its truly worth it!

Yang mau order Raiku bisa cek instagramnya @RaikuBeauty ya!❤️ See you on my next post x

Beauty Princess Collab (The Little Mermaid)

I picked The Little Mermaid cuz this princess is one of my favorite. For those of you who loves to watch Disney Princess or specifically The Little Mermaid, you’ll know when Ariel plays the character on the movie. I really love Ariel when she sing “Part Of Your World” with her sassy red hair and also her moves. Her prince, Flounder, and Sebastian are always accompanied her like everywhere she goes. But we know, the enemy, called Ursula, the nasty one. Um waaait, back to the main topic, I am inspired to do the makeup cuz the dominant color in Ariel is red, green, and purple. I surely can do some creations with those colors. Because Ariel’s hair color is red, i do red color on my eyebrows (yeah as we know, eyebrows are sometimes have the same color like the hair right.) And I do green and purple for the eyeshadows. On my forehead, i just paint some pastel colors with eyeshadows just to make it more colorful (and this was inspired by colorful shells on the movie).

The step by step of creating this look :

1. Starting with the normal base for the face such as Moisturizer, Primer, Serum and other optional products that you want to use for the base. I use the easy bases like Nature Republic Aloe Vera Gel for Gel Moisturizer, Skin Point Co Acne Serum and Monistat Primer.

2. Next i would love to do my eyebrows first before doing the complexion. I use Wardah Lipstick Palette and i choose a shocking red color. Then, i paint it on my eyebrows carefully with an eyebrow brush and conceal it using Maybelline Concealer normally to make it more precise.

3. Next up! Move to complexion, you can use your as usual complexion products such as BB Cream, Foundation, Cushion and other stuffs. I only use Rimmel BB Cream 9 in 1 and bake it with Ponds BB Magic Loose Powder. (I’m sorry i didn’t capture the complexion steps because i think it’s normal and easy to do like your daily makeup! 😉

4. The time for you to play with the colors. Yes, Eyeshadows! Use an eyeshadow base (optional). I use NYX Eyeshadow White Base and blend it out with my fingers. (TIP : You can also use a light concealer for an eyeshadow base)

5. Next, i pick a green color from Sleek Eyeshadow Palette. Then, i blend it into my crease using blending brush. You can use your favorite eyeshadow palette as long as it has green colors.

6. Then, take your favorite concealer to conceal the main lid. I use Maybelline Concealer and apply it with a small brush.

7. When you’re done concealing the lid, take another green and apply it to half of your lid.

8. After that, you take a purple eyeshadow color. I use the same Sleek Eyeshadow Palette.

9. Next, take a black eyeliner and draw a line like i draw on the picture.

10. Another black eyeliner alert! I write Disney The Little Mermaid based on the font from the movie. Anyways, i use an eyeliner from Wardah.

11. Take a blue face paint or any products that you have. I use Blue Kajal Eye Pen to draw something like blue-ish wave.

12. Eyelashes Paaartt! Dont forget to curl your lashes or you can use false eyelashes to make it more dramatic (yep, i just curl it cuz im laazyy). And use your favorite mascara. In here, i use a Barbie Mascara from Maybelline New York.

13. Finish with the lips! I use the same product and same color like i use on my eyebrows. Choosing the shocking red color from Wardah Lip Palette.

14. (Optional) I add pastel colors on my forehead just to make it kind of more colorful, i apply NYX Eyeshadow Base and blend every color from Sleek Eyeshadow Palette. *Sorry i didn’t capture the steps but yeah i hope you guys know what i meant*

This look is super duper easy, you just need to play out with Ariel’s colors and yeah BOooM! The quite tricky part is only on when you’re writing The Little Mermaid font with eyeliners, but the rest of it are super duper easy. Actually you can create more or different creations, like for example, you can use green for the eyebrows and red for the crease (eyeshadows) It is actually all about creativity and be brave to play with those colors. Do not be scared when you want to apply colors, even if when you are applying the wrong color, you can put other color above it. Just be brave to do some experiments!

Products that i used :

-Nature Republic Aloe Vera Gel

-Skin Point Co Acne Serum

-Monistat Primer

-Rimmel BB Cream 9 in 1

-Ponds Magic BB Loose Powder

-Sleek Eyeshadow Palette

-NYX Eyeshadow Base

-Wardah Black Intense Eyeliner

-Eyelash Curler

-Maybelline New York Barbie Mascara

-Blue Kajal Eye Pen

-Wardah Lip Palette

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You can also check out my friend’s masterpiece of this Disney Princess Collab :

https://www.mkartikandini.com/2018/10/jadi-putri-salju-bareng-beauty-blogger.html

Hello stalkers, readers, visitors! Welcome back to my kind of diary about experiences and others. Glad you guys still read it until now. So, i want to continue my story from the previous one. Remember? We flew to Brisbane from Sydney with Virgin Australia. It takes about 45 minutes. When we arrived, someone already waited for us there. One of the guide. His name is Jackson. After everyone went out from the plane, we walked to take our luggage. But 3 students were missing. All boys. Of course. Yeah, they walked somewhere i guess after they went out from the plane. Not really sure, but the guide told the airport information to call them from the airport speaker. So embarassing. Actually they wasted our time, because we searched for them like so long but when we waited for the luggage, suddenly they ran to us. I dont have any idea what were they thinking. But hah.

After everyone carried their own luggage, we hopped to the bus. We went to Pacific Pines High School, that’s our kinda (temporary) school to study there. When we arrived, we put our suitcases outside the class. They have like terrace place. So we put it there. I forgot to tell you that we stayed there with a host family. While waiting the host family, we decided to play some games inside. One by one, the parents (host family) were already outside. I don’t even know which one is my host family. But well, i knew that i stay in one house with Dania, Hasna and Aurora. I shaked and i said to myself. Which is my host parent? Do they nice? Still shaked until.. they came. My host parents are Jacqueline and Len. Yeah Jacque/Jackie and Len. They picked us up from the school with 2 cars because they knew that we carried suitcases. So 1 car for the people, 1 car for the suitcases. Exclusive hahaha.

We went to their house which is not far from the school. Just about 2/3 minutes, we arrived. We saw a puppy, the puppy was peeking out of a window. So cute! I was saying again to myself like “My first time stepping the house in australia” like i really see when i stepped my foot to the first ceramic xD. Just stepped like 2 or 3 steps from the door, the puppy was barking soooo loud and the puppy ran to all sides. I guess it means the puppy is really happy cuz 4 new persons stay in the house for about 12 days. It means.. the puppy has some friends to play. That’s the point. The name of the puppy is Pipa. Currently forgot the puppy is a boy or a girl.//  Sorry Pipa! // The house is not so big but the house is so clean. All things neat and nice.

Jacque told us that we better call them mom and dad. So yeah, we felt so in home. So comfortable. They treated us like a real kids. Even though just for 12 days. Because we are all moslems in the house (the kids) so yeah a little bit afraid of puppy. We’re afraid that Pipa will lick us and yeah. Not allowed in the religion. About first 3 days, we wore socks because we were afraid. For the second time i will say this is very embarassing. Like we must pray subuh and the time there is different from Indonesia so we have to do it earlier. I forgot the actual time but its earlier than in Indonesia. In the morning, Hasna and I woke up first and we went to the bathroom to wudhu. When we opened the door, Pipa was barking so loud because it’s still in the morning and we already woke up to pray. We ran to the bathroom because we were afraid hahaha still. Actually Pipa followed us but when we went inside the bathroom, the dog stopped. Maybe Pipa knew the bathroom is not a good place to bark or do something. Smart puppy.

We ate dinner for the first time with mom cuz dad was working out there. We ate spaghetti, as i remember. Mom gave us sooo many spaghetti tho like the portion is very very big. Some of us can’t handle it but we tried to clean them up. Because the portion is really big, we talked to mom how big is the portion. We asked for less portion, and mom said that her last kids that stayed in her house were big eaters so mom thought we are big eaters but we’re not. So she gave us less portion. Finally, better than before. She always offer us some desserts after we ate the main food. Sometimes yoghurt, cookies, biscuits and etc. I dont remember clearly about the actual date and what we do cuz i dont memorize them one by one. But i always asked for greek yoghurt and grapes. HHEEHE soooo yummy.

22th Dec 15. Its actually mother’s day in Indonesia and my mom’s birthday! because im here i sent her some messages and yeaaah. Mom dropped us to the Pacific Pines High School and we met our friends there. I sat with Dania in the classroom. Jackson made a group of 3. After that he gave a piece of paper to every group. Im with Dania and Banat. There are some ingredients that we have to buy in the closest supermarket called Woolworths. It’s about 10-15 minutes to go there on foot. We got kangaroo sausages, something relate to meat i forgot, and one more is spray oil? not really remember hehe. It was so fun searching some foods in the supermarket, we asked where is the meat to a worker there because we dont really sure which is the meat cuz there are sooo many:((

After all ingredients were complete, Jackson payed everything in the cashier. I dont know how much it costs but whatever. After all done, we walked to a park near woolworths. We will do the BBQ there. For some people maybe dont know, most of parks in australia has some BBQ place. For the slang, they call it “Barbie”. We grilled some kangaroo sausages and beef sausages. While we are waiting, we played in the playground. I know right we are teenagers already but who carees man?  we still can enjoy the fun of playing! After it finished, we ate it with a slice of bread. With BBQ sauce of course! It was my first time trying kangaroo sausages. The meat is a little bit hard to bite. But the taste is quite good. Some pics that reminding me of the situation there :

23rd Dec 15.  We supposed to go to the Dream World, yeah maybe you know few weeks ago there’s an accident in Dream World. Some persons played in a ride and some of them passed away. You guys can read them in news article. Luckily, im okay. Few days ago, Dream World just reopen after that fatal accident. I hope everything’s will be fine and safe for everyone. Ugh. I want you to know that we went to the wrong place.. We thought we go to the Movie World, so we go there. But we’re wrong. We waited like 30 minutes there and Jackson said we were in wrong place. So we ran quickly to the car and mom took us to the Dream World. When we’re arrived, everyone already waited for us like soo long. And they asked so many questions like why are you guys late, where have you guys been, and blablabla.. We’re done with the questions. Let’s move. We took some pictures in front of the Dream World, and we qued in the line to go inside the Dream World. When we’re in, Jackson took us to the sheep place i dont remember the name. And then he took us to see the koala and kangaroo too. We fed some kangaroos, it was fun! After everything’s done, Jackson said that we can go wherever you want. Some of my friends played extreme rides like Tower of Terror, the fast roller coaster that goes up and quickly back down. I’ve read about it in a book and it’s the high or scary roller coaster in the world or what i forgot but i’ve read it. We separate, i go with my 3 friends. We just bought some ice creams and we played a kids ride like madagascar. HAHAHA. it’s actually useless. We payed expensive to go inside the amusement park and yeah just play that kind of jaded ride. I went to the candy shop and other fancy shop inside the Dream World. And bought sooooo many lollies for me and my sister and my frieeeends.

And i ate my sandwich when im inside the dream world, always, sandwich. The taste is yeah, not really good. But it’s so good for my weight. ON DIET. HAHAHAHA. jk. I still buy french fries fyi. and soft drink. We went home at 4 maybe. And after we arrived, we just played with Pipa the puppy and we swam in the spa! Im not sure is a pool or a spa. SOOO FUNN. Pipa jumped to the pool and joined us. I have an unforgettable story for this one. So, mom gave us 2 noodles. You guys know right it’s for swimming. The long one. What i remembered, Aurora was holding 1 noodle and Hasna too. Suddenly, Hasna asked me where is the noodle that she hold before. I said i dont know because i did’nt hold it. She thought i hold it but nah.. There’s a sack and there’s 1 broken noodle inside. At first i did’nt know its broken so i took the noodle out. I played with it inside the pool. About 2 minutes after, the noodle that i took is broken off. We were panic and dont know what to do. And luckily, Aurora had an idea. She said that she will bite the broken noodle part to make it smooth. HAHAHAHA. We sang some songs loudly and Aurora bit the noodle behind us. WHAT AN IDEAA! I threw the broken part to the road near the house. WE’RE SO SORRY MOM:((( we dont want you to get mad so yea.. hehe. I put the rest of the noodle to the sack. And.. Problem solved.

24th Dec 15. Typical students, study. Boring day. No need to tell.

25th Dec 15. CHRISTMAAASSS!

The christmas tree and the dining table -> DECORATED.

It’s saturday and it means weekenddddd. Anyway, i was counting the days like i dont want to go home:( but.. yeah. In the morning, we ate some cereals as usual. And we took a shower one by one. I polished my nail with some nail polishes that i bought in Cotton On in Sydney. Suddenly, mom came to our room and asked us to do it outside near the pool. Mom brought a pouch full of nail polishes and the remover. We started to polish our nails. Mom also polished her nail. First, i polished my nail with purple and after that i made half lines with different colour. So blue and purple. After im done, i polished them with mom’s nail polishes. I borrowed the top coat. We were so happy and we took a picture with my camera after we get our nails done.

 In the afternoon, Dad’s Mom and Dad were coming to the house. (do you guys get what i mean) And we were having lunch together. Dad’s mom gave us a mini smarties. So tiny and cute tbh. They are so nice and humble. Mom cooked salmon, rice of course because we asked for that. And some veggies. We talked about random things while we eat our lunch. After everything’s done, they went home. Their house is not really far from Mom’s house. We felt so tired (actually we didnt do anything in that day but we’re tired.) We decided to sleep:(( We didnt use the time well. We woke up at 3 o’clock i guess. And i asked mom that when will we go outside, she answered now. I woke the others quickly and tell them that we will go now. So, we started to wash our face and change our clothes. We went to Southport Beach. It’s near Surfers Paradise. Fyi, Southport Beach is a fake beach but it looks soooo real and beautiful. We spent our evening there. The sands are really white. And the water is really clean. No rubbish. They have a big park too. Where we can chill, they also have some BBQ place but not so many. Another thing in this place, they have playground. We played some kids ride, well who caaaaressss. It was fun. We’re never too old:-)

After we spent our time in the beach, we went to see the Christmas Houses. So some people in Australia decorated their house for christmas with colorful lights, christmas balloons, and etc. They have competition there which is the best house will win the competition. I think all of the houses win, cuz the houses are so colorful and ugh so amazing. Here are some pics of the houses + our selfie in front of a house there (1 of the house there has a foam shower outside their house (idk whats the name but i call it foam shower. So in front of their house, its like snow. Take a look at our hair. Full of foams. We felt like shampoo-ing but that’s truly impressive. Im amazed.