At the end of last year, my mum came running into the living room. She gave me, my sister, and my boyfriend a piece of paper each, “We’re writing new years resolutions” She said, with a massive grin on her face. “Write them down, give them back to me, and we will look at them again in a years time.” So we did. I wrote that I would start driving, play guitar and write songs more often, and that I would get a new job. Looking back at these a few days ago, I realised that I had only accomplished one of my goals.
It’s nearly the time of year where we make false promises to ourselves in order to make us feel better about the person we will become in the new year; these very promises that we completely forget about a month into the new year, and as a result we fall back into our old ways. However, everyone has those new year resolutions they actually manage to keep; for me, it was to get a new job. I managed that, and now I am much happier.
Anyways, I thought that I would write about my new years resolutions on here, and express why they are important to me. So here goes.
1.Become healthier:
This is most definitely the most popular resolution among everybody – eat better, go to the gym, practise mindfulness and so on. For me, its my diet.
This past year has been the worst in terms of my health; being put on and taken off medication, check ups with my doctor, and eventually my IBS diagnosis (although knowing I have an incurable health condition, it was a relief to finally get some answers). And after a year of pain and eating foods that cause this very pain, it would be nice to gain control of my condition and perhaps find a way to somehow ‘cure’ it. And, because of this, I will reduce the amount of crap I eat, from crisps to sweets. I will eat more fruit and veg, and drink more water, and as a result, I will not only feel healthier, but I will be happier too.
2. Start saving (properly):
Don’t get me wrong, I do save money – just not enough. And time and time again, I find myself eating into my savings account to save me from debt and to (maybe) help fund my weekly bottle of wine…
Anyways, this needs to stop; I need to start thinking about the future: about buying my first car, my first house, and going on my first holiday abroad independently. How am I going to be able to complete my dreams of living in Italy for a year after my A-Levels, when I barely save my money? With me, money falls through my fingers like sand.
3. Find more time for myself:
Since starting at Sixth Form, I have struggled to find time for myself. All my free time goes towards studying – and if not studying, then working, and if not that then basic necessities such as eating, cleaning and socialising with my family. I have lost myself, in the sense that I have no hobbies anymore. I used to be such a creative person – from writing music, to drawing the odd doodle. Now? I have no time to do that. This upcoming year, I would like to find time for myself and my hobbies, so that I can become me again and chill out.
2019, I hope you are positive to not only me, but to others and to the planet. I hope that this year will be the year of growth, happiness, and peace. And although I may not follow these resolutions to the end of the year, at least I reflected on what I need to improve within myself, and at least I tried, right?
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