
She dances
To the music alive in her bones
She sings
From the verses coursing through her veins
She steps forward
Carried in the arms of all who came before her
©Ashley Castle Barnes

What if her voice
Were to rise above
The ringing in her ears
To a pitch that even she could hear
Would she try
To drown it out
Or sway to its sweet melody
Calling her to speak
To sing
To shout
©Ashley Castle Barnes
In writing this, my instinct was to end with “sing” instead of “shout”.
I read it and re-read it and it didn’t work that way.
But I recognize in the discomfort around ending with that word the ingrained messaging about being loud.
About shouting specifically. And especially for girls.
We receive messages pretty early about being “appropriate”.
That usually means a lot of things about how we’re supposed to show up, not the least of which is quiet.
But not too quiet. And not too loud.
Definitely not shouting.
Shouting is for anger. Aggression. Strong emotion.
Girls are supposed to be “ladylike”. Composed.
Definitely not shouting.
And so, even at 47, there is an aversion to suggesting that when we find our voice, we might use it to – gasp – shout.
Oh the unlearning about how we’re all “supposed” to be.
What are you shouting about today?

And when it all comes together
Does she sing
Or does she cry
Or does she even know
All the years trying
Is she ready for the show
©Ashley Barnes

What if hope
Is just a bird singing
Alone on a fence post
And her heart sings
She looks again
And hope has taken wing
©Ashley Barnes

Today she weeps
Tomorrow she sleeps
Ready for her words
To rise above the din
Ready for her heart
To sing once again
©Ashley Barnes

When her wings won’t fly
She walks
When her heart won’t sing
She talks
When her hands won’t hold
She makes
When her best isn’t enough
She takes
And shares it anyway

Our inner souls are singing
Let their voices be heard,
For all the world,
Across the land,
Each ear affixed
To the sound of soul’s song,
And another will rise
And another still,
Until the chorus of voices
Outnumbers the pain,
Drowns out the sadness,
Lifts up those who feel
There is no hope to spare
Voices raised in unison,
In harmony,
Speaking peace in one tongue,
Lips unmoving,
Yet hearts open wide
Peace is here!
Love is here!
All beings rejoice,
Rejoice!
©SpiritLed 2019