Tuesday, August 17, 2021

Jessie and Me


    It was extra dry in the peak of summer that year. Jessie and me had been itching to go gigging so we got up earlier than the birds, put on our waders, and popped on down the hill to the swamp. We hiked that trail almost every week, so it was easy going through the pines and the moon was still so fat and high so we didn't even need to use our flashlights. Jessie and me are chatterboxes so we scared all the critters from a ways away, no big scary bears for our hike! 

    We got down to the edge of the swamp and stopped talkin at the same time so's not to scare the bullfrogs. We waded around for a couple hours, until dawn came and the bucket was pretty full, sure good enough for supper anyways. Then, as we usually did, Jessie and me sat down by the edge of the swamp and watched the sunrise while eatin a couple rolls and a tin of sardines between us. I'd recently discovered hot sauce, so we were enjoying the heck outta that for sure that mornin.

    Me and Jessie weren't rich and weren't poor, our moms both had jobs up at the hospital. My mom was a receptionist and hers was a nurse. That's how we met in the first place, at the hospital daycare. We'd been thick as thieves ever since. "The 'Seprables", that's what they called us, our moms and the kids at school. We neither one of us minded — frankly we didn't give a hoot what anyone else thought — we just enjoyed one another's company. Until about half an hour after breakfast when we found the bodies. Spose we should start where it started. 

    So there we were, after eatin and tidying up our kit. We were chatterin as usual, I was talkin about frogs when Jessie just stood up all of a sudden, her upturned nose pointed directly off the trail along with her gaze. "You see that, Willy?" She pointed off into the swamp. I shook my head, I didn't see nothin but water and grass. "Well come on then, I saw somethin over there, let's go look." She plonked down on her butt and started pulling her waders back on. I grouched a little for fun while pullin mine on too. No matter what it did or didn't turn out to be, I always followed Jessie's nose. 

    So we slogged out a ways, probably not more'n a couple meters. We took care, poking sticks in the mud at the bottom even though the water was really clear that day, and it took us a good couple minutes til we got to this nice little semi-shaded pool which seemed a lot deeper than the rest of the water judging by the darkness of it. That's when we both saw what Jessie had said she seen from the shore. Two women, just floating beneath the surface, deader'n doornails. 

    We were both silent for a minute, both of us stunned. "Ain't that... Ms. Moon?" I said, finally, pointing at the lady I recognized. Ms. Moon had been our schoolteacher up til she just up and disappeared a couple years back. Jessie nodded, her brown cheeks almost cream, her eyes wide. "Well who's that then?" I pointed at the lady with her arms all up and weird around her neck. Jessie started sobbing and fell to her knees in the muck, spluttering as the water splashed around her face. "No, seriously Jess, who the hell is that and what the hell is goin on? You know her?" She didn't say anything, just kept sobbing. 

    I couldn't get anything out of her for hours. Had to pick her up almost, push her back up the trail to the house. It ain't fun hiking in soggy clothes and it's less fun when yer pushin a zombie, but she was my best friend in the whole world and there's no way in hell I'd abandon her, ever. 

    She had stopped sobbing long ago, almost as soon as I got her out of the water, but she hadn't said nothin since. Then, round noon, I brought her some lemonade and sat down next to her on my favorite chaise lounge next to hers. Then, outta nowhere Jessie piped up with, "Don't say nothin' Willy." 

    I hadn't said nothin so I kept on not sayin nothin, I knew this trick already, so I thought. "You ever hear about my momma?" Jessie asked. I shook my head, confused, I knew her mom, of course. "Well, you thinkin you know my momma now cuz we grew up knowin each other through our mommas, but my momma aain't my momma. My momma's back in that..." She pointed downhill. "...and I didn't know about it til just now." She paused, waiting. I stared at her, also waiting. "Oh, you can talk now." 

    I didn't say a word.

Tuesday, March 2, 2021

Yours

                             fourteen bone cubes rolling,
                                 stack crawl creep toward /
                      sic'em segment slithering worm
            forward end logjam traffic clack grind forward
                                                                          /against crack in the wall /
                rewind reform collect regret spin webs to lines
                    new skin now limbs now stand up tall 
                    walnut knuckles white chalk pall
                    fingers in crack,
                            \wedge\
                       chimney angular knuckle wedging locked in nut
                    a child in a forest alone
                    trapped knee
                    slow throttle choke noose german shepherd dog
                    one paw touch ground
                    extend the crawl
                        tentacular imitation
                        ersatz H 2 O too much gravity
                        depressurized bloating
                        uncontrolled smoking
                    one knuckle above the other
                    hand becomes wedge
                    specific crack ascent tool
                    uniquely tailored
                    crafted manufactured driven screwed down nailed into
                    every specific hole
    
                    inches miles centimeters light years leagues 
                    relevant distance traveled
                    relative no more
                     teacup to an asteroid or thimble to a spoon
                        a tiny mote of dust are we
                    to a particle of our Moon
                    

O3

 

Lake, river,
brine'd deeps to rocky shore
a proper octopus loves nothing more
Glacial tarns, puddles and rain:
all water is grog for an octopus' brain!

Viva los Ghetto Palms

soaked puddle sticky meat stench
eyes go flat
. Loss blinks
CRT fades to matte
hollow open cavernous alone
no monochrome plain
no blood no bone
no motorcars
no memories remaining to retain
impossible to imagine
for venomous chemical balloon
few women live at midnight
and few men live at noon
beasts and plants live at every time
between the suns and moons

Monday, March 1, 2021

Leviathan

 

We were born of Olympics
our father was Zeus
we're a strange brainy creature
with an octopus muse
she grips our grey heart
O — gives us great mirth
her mysterious "ur–aahh"
is the iron of earth.
cavernous creature
great Leviathan!
on your waves tiny otter
on your back we are borne!

Outside

 

Cleanse iron pot: Scrape filth aside
Flense our skeleton from our hide
Lensing, micro macro wide
No more safe harbor: We're Outside.

Cure our disease illness desires
Slur your venom into our core
 blur us — static white noise liar
Bless us, wretched paramour

Spine erects into a mast
Lines from tendons rigging hull
Our word is bonded and held fast
peck at our sails: You're a free seagull.
Navigation neverending
this pearl, this globe we swim around
it spins too, we speed along
stars roar by in clear night skies
listen to the wind rush:
Hear the pulse of our song!

Only the smallest things are free
and we're too large, you and we
we are trapped by gravity
and down this well
is where
we'll 
be.

Dear June

 
tɾees of Heaven
Heaven sent
Kingdom Come
a ɾezident
pɾecisely apt to they intent

We look out across the scrag
wind-swept dreary, plastic garbage bags.
Mister Raven and his group flying above.
— They're the only bright ones left of the Great Old Things, at least around here.
. fall upon our rusty sword
. go collect our great reward
. shatter the mirror of desire
. scatter our cheap landfill empire